So it’s been a while since I’ve last made an entry..... I want to start again. Lets see, what has happened since 8/10/02. I can’t remember so Ill just start from today. Today is a very significant day in our country as it is 9/11. It is exactly one year since the 9/11 terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center in NY. It is a day that no one will forget. It is a day where many lost their lives. It is a day where movies became reality. And everyone's lives changed. I can remember what I felt that day and I would never want to relive it. I was stuck in an airport oblivious to what was going on. Stuck in another country. In total disbelief that the rumors I had heard were true. To feel that fear and uncertainty is just SCARY. And that is I was not even in NY. I can only imagine how those people have been scarred by the event. Today we had a memorial service @ Daley Center. It was very nice. Gary Sinese was there and led everything. I ran into an old coworker of mine and we attended the service together. We actually made it all the way up to the front. The turnout was so large. There were religious leaders from all religions and a gospel choir and singers. It was very touching. However for some reason I’ve been feeling very removed from myself. It felt a pang of sadness, but its like .... on with everyday life. Its almost like I am numb. I have to admit I’ve lost my inner peace and don’t even feel like God is with me. And that’s scary.