And now I will speak to the relationship forecast for 2003.
I really dont know what will happen. I know that SM and I are on anothetlevel of understanding and communicating with each other. I feel like he tryly understand me. I wasnt sure he did. But recently he has proven it to me several times. The most recent was when he explained why he thought I didnt tell anyone that I had all these vacation days at the end of the year. He began to explain that I just wanted normal days, not on a vacation in a foreign place. Just days to so stuff in Chicago, for myself. Regular days to myself. NAd he hit that on the ball.
And on New Years Eve we talked all night about our relationship and how we feel. He told me that he lost his breath when he first met me. He really loves me. But sometimes I wonder if love is enough. WE talked and talked all night and it was wonderful. We were able to say so much to each other. Some good and some bad. BUt all out on the table. Then we had sex or even made love. Exactly how each other desired. It was wonderful. I was in heaven. He actually listened to what I needed. Finally. But it will be a long time till I see that side of hime. He has vowed to abstain for 40 day and 40 night as in the movie. He is crazy. But if he feels the need to do so, more power to him.
Anyways, I love him but I think I am expecting this distorted idea of a man from TV to be the perfect person for me. And that is why Im so sacred to fully commit. I admit that there was alot of negative things in the past that makes me a little hesitant, but I truly believe I am expecting Prince harming to come along. Its funny, he does fulfill my dream in many ways, but there are also many bad things. I dont know. For now, I will just go with it. I feel myself falling. I I get hurt again, so be it.
I really dont know what will happen. I know that SM and I are on anothetlevel of understanding and communicating with each other. I feel like he tryly understand me. I wasnt sure he did. But recently he has proven it to me several times. The most recent was when he explained why he thought I didnt tell anyone that I had all these vacation days at the end of the year. He began to explain that I just wanted normal days, not on a vacation in a foreign place. Just days to so stuff in Chicago, for myself. Regular days to myself. NAd he hit that on the ball.
And on New Years Eve we talked all night about our relationship and how we feel. He told me that he lost his breath when he first met me. He really loves me. But sometimes I wonder if love is enough. WE talked and talked all night and it was wonderful. We were able to say so much to each other. Some good and some bad. BUt all out on the table. Then we had sex or even made love. Exactly how each other desired. It was wonderful. I was in heaven. He actually listened to what I needed. Finally. But it will be a long time till I see that side of hime. He has vowed to abstain for 40 day and 40 night as in the movie. He is crazy. But if he feels the need to do so, more power to him.
Anyways, I love him but I think I am expecting this distorted idea of a man from TV to be the perfect person for me. And that is why Im so sacred to fully commit. I admit that there was alot of negative things in the past that makes me a little hesitant, but I truly believe I am expecting Prince harming to come along. Its funny, he does fulfill my dream in many ways, but there are also many bad things. I dont know. For now, I will just go with it. I feel myself falling. I I get hurt again, so be it.
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