Nothing too interesting today. Work sucked. I just dont have the motivation to do anything. Went to lunch with the girls again. I really need to stop doing that if Im supposed to be eating healthy. Plus I dont really feel like I fit in most of the time. However HD is always talking to me about her man problems. I feel like I may have goofed because I said I dint like what I was doing really loud at the restaurant, not knowing that CA was there. Oh well. I was supposed to go to the movies with FJ today but it didnt work out. I did go to karate. Ive been feeling lazy about going but I went. NS taught class today. He and NJ have diffent styles of teaching but they are both extreme;y good. I really like karate. NS kicked our asses today. I am goingto be sore. It was really good conditioning/strengthening execrises. Afterwards I went to SM house for a little while. Then I went home. And here I am. I just finished watching Will & Grace. Its the episode wher Grace is going througha really bad break up and she refuses to get out of bed. God, do I remeber the fellin. That feeling of pain and your life is shattered. The feeling where you just want time to stand still or it does in your mind. And you want to crwal into a hole and hide. Boy do I remeber the feeling. I do not wish that on my worst enemy. Its actually wierd that I can almost feel it. Ive had these wierd fleeting feelings for the past couple of months. Its like I glimpsed into the past and feel the pain for a second and then it goes away. It happened again while watching this episode. I wonder what it means???