OK I knew it wouldnt last very long. I had two really good days. NOt that today was horrible, because it wasnt. But just not as good. Well I just finished looking at monster.com for a job. For so long Ive been scared just to look. But I decided to just see. I did find a perfect job for me but it was in a consultong firm. Unfortunately, that does not seem very stable to me. Oh well. I tried. The reason I even looked is because GJ told me that he has an interview on Monday. Im happy for him cuz he an excellent worker. He deserves it. Unlike me who is so scared. ANyways, I hope to clean up my resume soon. Since were on the subject of work I will continue.... The reason I think i didnt have such a great day was because I was at my desk all day writing the plan. I wasnt in meetings or running around and doing things. I was just sitting at my desk writing a paper. And thats when I realized that I need to interact with people. Otherwise I dont feel happy or motivated. I feed off those interactions. Its just like when we used to have big meetings with teh SFB business client or huddle meetings with BK. It would motivate me. So I learned something about myself today.

As far as personal stuff, I am excited about all these new foods Ive found and am happy Ive been staying strong. On top of that Ive been going to karate. So if I dont seee any progress on the scale I know Im benefiting in other ways. I ate chicken salad in pitas today. Tomorrow or the next I plan to make veggies w/ tomatoe sauce in the pitas. Yum. Today karate went well. We practiced alot for the exam. I actually felt a little nervous. Im scared for Sunday cuz what if alot of other people are there.

Anyways. Im going to end this now since I barely got any sleep last night. I just finished taking a shower and am clean. I lik eto be clean going into clean sheets. I sleep like a baby then. Im going to light candles and play music to relax and eventually fall asleep.