OK. Its been a LONG time since Ive written in this. Its a new year and I thought Id try it out again......

Today was my first day back to work since Christmas. I dreaded it. I hat my job. I was so depressed yesterday and CM helped me get thhrough it. ES was really annoyin today too. She is so selfish. She has no concept of other peoples wishes or feelings. I just to get it. I really cant stand her. I want to get over it to keep things peaceful, but it might take me a while. Many things have changed since I last wrote. Ive been moved off my previous reponsibilities and am now working on Horizon. In addition I have a new boss. So Im not going to go on about that cuz its not worth it... and Im sure Ill be doing alot of bitchin in the future. I do want to try to put some direction for myself in this year and try to at least sound positive, even if I dont feel it. Anyways...

Two things made me very happy today.

One. I took the train to work today and drove my car to the station. Not that. SM checked on my car to see if it was OK, since my car had been previosly broken into twice already. Anyways, Im walking toward my car after work and I see I love you written on my car twice in the fresh snow. I was so touched. I love stuff like that. And that is something Ive always wanted someone to do since GT did that for GD. I was so happy. It brought an immediate smile to my face. I have to say that after this New Year's Im beginning to really fall for SM again. I feel my guard going down and Im scared. and this little this was so nice. Its softening me.

Two. I went to NJ's so we could exchange gifts. She was so thoughtful and got me two sweaters and a cosmopolitan mix gift set complete with a bar guide. I like everything so much, especially the bar guide. Ive always wanted to know how to mix drinks. We tallked, bitched about work, and then I also showed her and CA stretching execrcise. That was interesting.