Wow its been like two years since the last time I wrote a blog. Thats pretty crazy. I knew I wouldnt be able to hold out. The sad thing is alot of what I wrote about two years ago is still going on today. I think the only difference now is that Ive moved out and own my own now. Im still battling with my weight, Im still at a job I dont like - in fact I dislike it even more, and Im stil in an wierd relationship. Of course ther have been lots of changes, but I feel like its gone full circle around. Weird. New things going on right now are I just got a new laptop - which is one of the reasons that Im actually writing a blog now. The other this is I live in my beautiful condo. And Im currently pursuing 2 career moves. One is I/O and theother is the concirge service HD & KS & I are looking to pursue. We have alot of ideas. I really hope it takes off somehow. Thats pretty much all thats going on right now. There have been alot of ups ad downs that have been documented in other journals. So lets see how long I can keep up with this. Right now its like 1am and Im just up without a care in the world. I swear I feel like Im in school or something, yet I have to go to work tomorrow. So let me go on and write about today....

Today I went out to dinner with FJ. I havent seen her in so long and it was so nice. She has a boyfriend now which is really wierd. And its all on her terms, no arrangements or anything. She seems happy so Im happy for her. Were planning on trying to go on a trip soon. But who knows if that will really pan out. I dont consider anyone dependble anymore. Especially after hearing the story of drama when the girls from work went to Vegas. I hope that drama does not get in the way of the business were tryingto pursue.

Other things worth noting.... In the past year I think Ive grown up alot, but Ive also regressed after coming back from Spain. In a nutshell, this is whats happened to me overthe past year.. I moved out and learned how to live on my own. My mother battled breast cancer. I questioned the realtionship with SM. Got pregnant. Had a miscarriage. Broke up with SM. Learned how to be alone - in many aspects. Learned how to do things for myself and by myself. Let go of SM. Learned how to travel by myslef on several business trips. Learned that there are good guys out there and its not hard to get to know guys. Realized I did not have to be afraid of rejection. Became very selfish. Turned into a food snob. Severed ties with some friends, and strengthed ties with others. Felt alive and liked someone again. Started going out every night. Had an urge to go back to school full time. Traveled to Mexico. Traveled to Spain. Then here comes the regression. Paineted my entire house. Got depressed cuz there was alot of distance between me & my friends. Turned to SM. Eventually got back together. Good christmas. Met two cool guys at work who really motivated me to think outsideof this company. Very stimulating conversations. Lived in Dallas for 3 weeks. Had a surprise birthday party thrown for me. Started looking into starting a business. I think Ive caught up. Whew.