Its amazing how much can change in just a few months.... Oh the drama! Anyways, me & SM are not together AGAIN. I hope, as I have always have in the past, that this is for real and is final. But only one month has passed. Not doing bad at all. But last time I did so well and then gave in at 6 months. So, as SS says... RUN LIKE HELL (from your ex). Why did this all happen? Becasue he got drunk and stupid (maybe even high) one night and just destroyed my whole house. Id go into details, but I just dont want to relive it again. Needless to say, my house was messed up, police were called, and I was upset and scared. But its all over now. He caims someone slipped him something at the bar he was on. But who knows? Teh story sounds a little believable, but I really dont care. It doesnt excuse what he did.
So I have to be strong. Ive been keeping myself busy and trying to stay focussed, even despite distractions I get. Like my mother trying to convince me that I should get back with my ex. Shes crazy ! Shes just being selfish because she like having someone like him there for her. And hey, if a messed up marriage worked for he, why dont I give it a try. Our discussion floored me. I just couldnt belive it. She had a response for point I made. From love, to kids, to money, and families. She had a comeback to support her point. But she finally just gave in and said I should do what I want. Hell yeah !! Because love does not conquer all, despite what she is tryingto convince me. Although no one will probably love me the same way he did, someone will love me - in their own way. I am loveable. Hehe.
Next item .. work. Im sooo out of there !!! Straight from our directors mouth... 'there is no growth in our organization.' What a powerful speach ! NOT. Shes so stupid. And Im tired of allthe BS at this company. Tired. I need to leave. I sent out my resume. But am also contemplating doing something crazy and radical. Like movingto another country for a short time and teaching english. Going back to school has been ruled out becaise I simply dont knowif I canhandle school. And lastly, is staying in thisindustry but changing jobs. Who knows where life will take me. But we are still pursuing the concierge business. We havent gotten as far as we'd like, but were still working at it.
Vacations..
Parents homeland, NYC, Mall of America, Atlanta, OKC?? Where to go? I wish I was going to Punta CAna as planned, but obviously that is not happening. But there are all these small trips people are suggesting. Im very interested, but dont know if I can swing it finacially or time wise. And theres the motherland. Id love to go, but again - time restiction. I could always just quit my jib and go...Hmmm.
And lastly, friends.... suck. ANd not the television show. I have not spoken to one of my so called friend in almost 1 year and another it has almost been 1 month. And Im not makingthe first move, becasue I have not wronged anyone. If people want to be selfish, then so be it. I give up.
So heres the lastest update on my QLC. The drama does not stop. And I really wish it did !!!
So I have to be strong. Ive been keeping myself busy and trying to stay focussed, even despite distractions I get. Like my mother trying to convince me that I should get back with my ex. Shes crazy ! Shes just being selfish because she like having someone like him there for her. And hey, if a messed up marriage worked for he, why dont I give it a try. Our discussion floored me. I just couldnt belive it. She had a response for point I made. From love, to kids, to money, and families. She had a comeback to support her point. But she finally just gave in and said I should do what I want. Hell yeah !! Because love does not conquer all, despite what she is tryingto convince me. Although no one will probably love me the same way he did, someone will love me - in their own way. I am loveable. Hehe.
Next item .. work. Im sooo out of there !!! Straight from our directors mouth... 'there is no growth in our organization.' What a powerful speach ! NOT. Shes so stupid. And Im tired of allthe BS at this company. Tired. I need to leave. I sent out my resume. But am also contemplating doing something crazy and radical. Like movingto another country for a short time and teaching english. Going back to school has been ruled out becaise I simply dont knowif I canhandle school. And lastly, is staying in thisindustry but changing jobs. Who knows where life will take me. But we are still pursuing the concierge business. We havent gotten as far as we'd like, but were still working at it.
Vacations..
Parents homeland, NYC, Mall of America, Atlanta, OKC?? Where to go? I wish I was going to Punta CAna as planned, but obviously that is not happening. But there are all these small trips people are suggesting. Im very interested, but dont know if I can swing it finacially or time wise. And theres the motherland. Id love to go, but again - time restiction. I could always just quit my jib and go...Hmmm.
And lastly, friends.... suck. ANd not the television show. I have not spoken to one of my so called friend in almost 1 year and another it has almost been 1 month. And Im not makingthe first move, becasue I have not wronged anyone. If people want to be selfish, then so be it. I give up.
So heres the lastest update on my QLC. The drama does not stop. And I really wish it did !!!
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